First, a confession. Or maybe an explanation. A confessplanation?
My big plan for April, my last month of freedom, was to work solidly on my master hand knitter project, and blog about it. That … mostly didn’t happen. I think part of it was the stress of my first day of work looming, but a lot of it boiled down to motivation. When a project becomes so bogged down that I feel like I have to force myself to work on it, and it becomes a source of guilt rather than fun, chances are I’ll frog it. I’ll certainly put it aside for something that doesn’t feel like work.
The master knitter project felt a lot like work.
This, of course, is fine. If it wasn’t a challenge, it wouldn’t be worth it. Plenty of projects have aspects that require perseverance. Usually what gets me through is the desire for the finished item, or even just the desire to move on to the next piece that was more interesting. I wasn’t finding that pull in the master knitter work. I wasn’t loving what I was doing, and I wasn’t feeling draw to the result right at this time.
So, at least for now, the master knitter work is a hibernating project again. Maybe later I’ll find the spark that causes me to pick it up again, but right now there’s no reason for it to be taking up metal knitting space.
In all honesty, though, that was probably for the best. Right now I’m hitting the learning curves hard at work. I’ve been running headlong into a new project that is similar enough to some of my previous work to look accessible, but just different enough to make me feel like an idiot for not getting it. I’m also learning some fancy new numerical techniques which are both awesome, and tricky.
And along with that I’ve been learning how to work with a new boss, a new group, a new department, and learning a new commute. By the time I get home in the evenings, I can barely manage stockinette!
On the plus side, I’ve just discovered that there’s a new yarn shop just ten minutes walk from my office! And tomorrow is payday. There’s light at the end of the tunnel, and it should be enough to knit by.